So, I'm pretty sure that most of you older than me, didn't think life was difficult at 24 right? Then what the hell is going on with me?
I feel like I'm going through the motions of what life should be and what I should be doing at this point, but I don't feel anything thats raw and real anymore. Where are all the tangables?
Maybe, I can handle it? Well damn I sure hope so. Because as much as I am told otherwise by the people closest to me, I still feel like a failure in the eyes of my three beautiful boys. And that is the worst feeling ever.
Now don't get me wrong, this is in no way a pity-party, woe-is-me, post. Just at this point in my life that 5 years ago I thought I would be completely settled! Its disappointing and frustrating.
Is it me? What have I done in my life to deserve this? Seems to be a constantly asked question. Why is he that way? Why do they treat me like this? What is going on here that I am unaware of?
Well, possible one day it will become clear to me. I'm tired of the tears. Mostly tired of my boys seeing and noticing my struggles. And i fear most that what is going on with me, isn't even hard, that I am making it this way........No no that cant be.
Whatever it is, can I get a break please?
Thanks for listening.
xoxo Rockie
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