Looks like rain..tut tut...

    Well, the rain has met us here in good ol' Bakersfield. Did I mention, I HATE the rain. But, to each their own.

It makes me get all gloomy and depressed and then I start thinking about everything into detail and what such lil things mean and so on and so fourth.
Lately, I have been letting people make me feel inadequate. Which, if you know me at all, isn't like me to do so.

I just start thinking and thinking, and then my mind goes 'well is there any truth to what this person is saying or feeling'? Maybe I am not as good a mother as I think I am? Or maybe I'm not such an upfront honest person all the time? Even though I know I am and always will be, why does my mindframe choose now to falter on me?

I hate feeling like this. It seems that the current situation I'm going through always turns out this way. And I dont like it at all.

Dont do things just to look better than me. Dont assume you know what is going on in my head. Or where my heart is. Or why I do the things I do. Maybe you will just never get it. And most of all dont ever judge me. I am not like anyone else. I am me.

Wish I could take my boys out in rain boots, snow pants, beanies, and gloves. With magnifying glasses, and snacks and go into the mountains, and let my loves explore. Let their creative minds get flowing, and have an amazing time! But that will have to wait for another time.

Hope this post finds you all well.

xoxo Rockie