Looks like rain..tut tut...

    Well, the rain has met us here in good ol' Bakersfield. Did I mention, I HATE the rain. But, to each their own.

It makes me get all gloomy and depressed and then I start thinking about everything into detail and what such lil things mean and so on and so fourth.
Lately, I have been letting people make me feel inadequate. Which, if you know me at all, isn't like me to do so.

I just start thinking and thinking, and then my mind goes 'well is there any truth to what this person is saying or feeling'? Maybe I am not as good a mother as I think I am? Or maybe I'm not such an upfront honest person all the time? Even though I know I am and always will be, why does my mindframe choose now to falter on me?

I hate feeling like this. It seems that the current situation I'm going through always turns out this way. And I dont like it at all.

Dont do things just to look better than me. Dont assume you know what is going on in my head. Or where my heart is. Or why I do the things I do. Maybe you will just never get it. And most of all dont ever judge me. I am not like anyone else. I am me.

Wish I could take my boys out in rain boots, snow pants, beanies, and gloves. With magnifying glasses, and snacks and go into the mountains, and let my loves explore. Let their creative minds get flowing, and have an amazing time! But that will have to wait for another time.

Hope this post finds you all well.

xoxo Rockie

235th Birthday?!?!?

Today is the Marine Corp birthday. 235 years ago and still goin strong.  My Father, My older Brother, many of my friends, And someone very special to me, have or are serving in the Marines, and I love you all.




Tomorrow is Veteran's Day, and the kids don't have school!! Thats awesome! And its Thursday! yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I feel like a lil school girl.

Hope yall have an amazing Wednesday :)

xoxo Rockie

Here's to a few steps in the right direction!

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!  Phew! Ok, now I can continue. I'm one of those "if it feels good to scream, go ahead" kinda chicks. :D

Lately, has been one heck of a ride. Things in my life constantly changing, just how I like it. But I never thought it would all move this fast. Boys are getting soooo big, changing literally everyday! Tim and I are finally getting along, thanks to some ::coughcough:: minor adjustments ;). And life is looking beautiful once again.

Our friends are the greatest ones anyone could have and I'm thankful to consider them family.

On another note, ITS FREEZING!!!! Ok maybe not as cold as it will be but I'm a serious Cali girl, love the hott summers, hate the winter! bbrrrrrrrr Cant wait to have the sunshine back for good.

Hope this post finds everyone doing great. Love you all!

xoxo Rockie