♥

The visions of white, in linen and lace. 

  A day of happiness in a beautiful place. 

Looking and listening as she comes down the isle, she sees the faces, everyone's smiles.

   You can't see it, she's shaking, trembling inside. 

This is what she wants right? Of course, then why such the fight. 

  In her mind and her heart, Its been rough from the start. 

But thats what we do, we keep pushing forward, moving right through.

  The pain and uncertainty, swirling around. 

You're mind is flying high while your heart hits the ground. 

  We all know the feeling, not pretty or fun. 

But what do you do? Can't turn back and run. 

  Know the limits that keep you and the ones that make you go, the future is not far, its just tomorrow. ♥

 

Moving along, quite nicely I might add :D

Been a while since I last posted so I'm sure there is a bit to update about. Well, we are in the process of home buying. Getting credit set, looking at houses, and neighborhoods. Its extremely exciting, and scary, because once you buy a house doesn't that mean you have officially reached "adulthood"? Ooooh that word scares me :P So we are hoping to be in a house, ideally by Christmas, but for sure January!

Me and the mini Us's got the flu this week so that was absolutely no fun. But thankfully it was over fast. Back to our regularly scheduled programming. Heh Heh.

Tim (DH) has been working like a mad man for the last 3 weeks. Out of state, to out of town. It was crazy! But I'm thankful to have him working and that he does it so well!
  Things have been going great, almost too great, but we wont jinx anything. Life is moving along smoothly. Zander is back to school tomorrow and I'm hoping he gets his behavior at school on track so that we dont have to worry about that being an issue any longer. Corbin is getting so big, learning so much everyday, and already eating me out of house and home. And Braxton, is starting to talk, using words we understand with a mixture of the few signs he knows. My lil family is just blossoming before my eyes and for the first time in a long time I feel like I'm right along with them! I have the greatest family and the friends that I consider family by my side and I couldn't ask for anything more!

.....Exxxcceeeeeeept for maybe a boob job and a BMW..... But we will save that for another time!


Til we meet again,

xoxo Rockie <3

A lane called Memory <3

All the places that I've been and all the people that I've met,
Are worth the memories I've made and all the things that I have let
Slip away and out of my mind, and though I remember it's hard to find,
The good times or the bad. That made me laugh or made me sad.
This is to those things I did, and would so sure do one more time,
For those things have touched my life, what once made me smile never a crime.
I give my heart to those memories and the ones yet to come,
They made me who I am and not to forget where I am from.

xoxo Rockie

Reality, SMACKED me in the face

As normal as our morning school routine has become for me and Zander, I start realizing 'oh no, my first born is on that bus I wave to every morning'! When did this happen? I mean, who told these children they were allowed to grow up, this wasn't in the contract, wait did I sign a contract, well I remember signing something. I know it's only kindergarten but just in case you didn't know they keep moving up every year and that means soon they will be kids, then pre-teens, and then.... Oh dear I'm not ready for this.

I love knowing that the rest of my babies are still snug in their lil beds as I stand there waving goodbye trying to cling on to any piece of hope that might be left, then it hits me. Yep! Reality, like a speeding car hits a brick wall. And I hear my mothers voice "It goes fast, Felicia"....

And I lay here in bed thinking about how hard it's going to be to see my other boys growing up just as fast....oh shit, am I gonna get old?!? ......... Naaahhhhhhh don't be dumb Felicia.

xoxo Rockie

A new leaf? No no, a new damn tree!

Obviously the weather was marvelous once again. Boys were pretty good as well. They went and hung out with Nawna and Pawpa today while me and Tim went and met with a lender. Looks like things are gonna change for the best and I can't wait to jump on this train of greatness and take off!
Dinner with the parentals and grand parentals was delish and great company. So glad to have my mom and dad back here in Bako where they belong.

Another pound down, only 20 Togo before Halloween! Let's do it!

Sand on the Beach...

Look into my eyes, you will see my soul.
See the things that complete me, that make me whole.
Step into a place where You will see who I am.
Not far don't look hard, it just hits you, BAM.
Come see that I am the person I show.
I'm true to my heart, for it's all that I know.
Inverted, eager, soft-spoken, not I.
You have my word, look! Look into my eyes.
On the surface I am strong and good willed.
Easily approachable, and laughter filled.

A lil bout me, for now that's all. But come Back again and again, I'll be here through Fall!!!

Until next rhyme
xoxo Rockie

A hop, step, and a leap

Well today's weather was beautiful so that immediately made myself and my boys so anxious to go outside. As late as they woke, it was already time to get Zander off the bus after they ate breakfast. It goes without saying that my monsters love their sleep!
Anywho, my nephew Aamaur and Breana came over to spend the hammock-ly perfect day outside with us, playing in the water and riding bikes.
On a whim I took the training wheels of off Zander's big boy bike to see if we could make some progress on riding by himself. And sure as the sky is blue he took off and never looked back! Only hitting a few cars, brothers and cousins while he got the hang of it.
As the bike riding revel was short lived due to a call from his teacher about his behavior at school, I was getting more and more mad thinking 'I thought kids are only supposed to misbehave at home!!' not a happy mommy and because Tim was outta town, unhappy mommy was what he had to deal with.
It was one of those, 'Its kindergarten!!! It's fun!!!! So SIT DOWN AND LISTEN' moments.

Needless to say bath and bedtime didn't come too short after and it was perfect timing.

Until next time
xoxo Rockie

Angel Wings

Now I lay them in their beds.
Blankets high, kiss their heads.
Blessed with life and so aware.
Innocent curiosity fills the air.
Smiley faces put a smile on mine.
Who deserves a life this divine?
Wake up every morning new ideas on their minds.
So captured by wonder at what they will find.
Keep safe my lil babies, safe as they sleep.
For their souls you may have but their hearts I will keep.

-Felicia Johnson

xoxo Rockie <3